My father was the last person I wanted to explain my sexual orientation to simply because he is highly homophobic. But listening to her tell him…it made my whole world shut down. My blood boiled and froze at the same time. My skin tightened and I felt like I couldn’t breathe as each syllable of that Spanish phrase left her mouth and traveled through my fathers ears. His facial expression. I’ll never forget it. So much sadness. So much frustration. So much exhaustion.
I don’t even know how to explain how I feel.
I’ve heard my father say he would kill Qiiyana and hopes she dies simply because she was gay. He hated her. So I never told him because I knew that if he found out I was gay too, he’d disown me.
Being a member of this family is a disaster, yo.